As I Pass the Synapses

When we look forward so much, we get blind of the important things or persons in front of us.

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This semester was greeted by a whirlwind of headaches and heartaches. All the plans I have made for four months have been discarded, and I did not even see it coming. Sometimes, it's not because we do not see what is here, it's just that, some are hidden from the horizon of our understanding. What's going on inside a person's head is hidden from our scrutiny so that we may be protected from the wretched insights of so many. For most of us, wishing that we could see someone else's thoughts is not a breakthrough. 

But, how would we perceive someone else's thoughts? Like a movie clip? an audio book? Perhaps, a dream? Or a filmstrip?

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It was such a long day. I had two exams and a photo shoot for a class. Today is the deadline of my probset in Engineering Economy.  I was supposed to attend a staff meeting after my last exam but I was informed as I arrived in the conference hall that it was cancelled. So, instead of lamenting about what I have not done, I am here, taking note of what has transpired today.

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Academics. Honestly, since I was a freshman, I have never bothered much about my academics. I could easily pass an exam without much studying. I am not saying that I am bright, what I am saying is that I am  lucky-- and I have been luck for four years in college. Sadly, I have recently concluded that my pot of luck has been depleted. Completely. I am doomed, but I cannot stay away from that someone who keeps me going.  Being a completely different person from someone you want sucks at times. It may be interesting, but like all other good things, it has a side effect.

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As the cliche goes, there is always a first time. Sometimes, out of experimentation and boldness, we dare to try the things we haven't. What makes it even more heart-pounding is when we try things we have once swore never to. Or worse, when we try things we should not do. 

I had once decided not to drink any alcoholic beverage for all of my existence. Just recently, I did. It was not bad after all. I did it while I was on the onset of the urge to do things I ought to do or experience while I am alive. Some sort of a bucket list, but not really because I don't have a list. (Seriously?) Well anyway, that was just a single bottle of Tanduay Ice. So, it really did not affect me at all. I am yet to discover my limits, you know. :P

The "original" T-ice

I was supposed to publish this post yesterday, only, things got busy and I only had time to finish it just now.