what forever meant to me

Earlier today, I was studying for yet another examination this afternoon. I was cramming, as usual, because I prioritized reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows than opening my notes.

Someone I was texting with since late last night then said, '...he wants to get married and blah blah blah.. until forever. '


Forever. What exactly had this word meant to me?


When I was still more naive, when I still believed that my love for that special someone would never cease, I used to believe in 'forever'-- that he would be my husband someday, that we would have a family, that we would be happier than how we used to be and that we would be together, forever.


What was forever for me, way back then? Did I seriously grasped the idea of 'forever'? Yes, I might have been that love-stricken girl who was stupid enough to be with someone I never really liked-- and that stupidity started all the idea of being able to spend forever with someone.


Right now, I really do not believe in forever. For me, if there is that something right in front of you, never hesitate. Grab it, and seize the glory or the pain. If everything ended up as a mess, you will learn, that at the very least, you know how to love, and that you know when to give up.


A lot of people are scared of what might happen if they bagged that opportunity to say what they really feel. A lost friendship? Humiliation? Rejection? Afraid that you may end up running? or left behind? I, too, am scared.

But you know what, when you are already brave enough to go out there-- unarmed, clueless and bold-- that's just the start of it all. There's happiness, and there's a lot more pain. But treat those sad endings as lessons, as tests. The glory of being able to love, is by being able to endure the pain, and move on. :)



Forever does not have an ending.. and everything humane, ends.